Shortly before I was heading out the door to the doctor the doorbell rang; 

it was a flower delivery for me from Alex!

Then as I was walking out Aja texted to see if I could watch Tyga tonight (I can.)  And while I was driving to the doctor Tom called to check in .

But I was handed major disappointment at the surgeon's office.  Because I had radiation for my breast cancer (which does damage on a molecular level even though the skin looks fine) there is a 30% risk of serious complications following surgery.  He will not operate on an irradiated breast because he's seen first hand what can happen, and said most of his colleagues feel the same way.

So I'm sitting here drowning my sorrows in chocolate.